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Thinking back on the last couple of years, looking at old pictures just realising how much my life has gone in a downward spiral. Im not complaining not at all, I dont feel sorry for my self either, I just keep on thinking and wondering how I got to...

BE POSITIVE

Every night, Being followed by sun's delight.. why are you scared? Trust me.. everything gonna be alright.. :)   Are you scared of darkness ? despite of knowing.. it's harmless... don't worry, this darkness.. will run...

When life is your best friend. . .

Did you ever wake up one day and wonder how the fuck did I get here!! Where am I in life and where are all the dreams and plans I had for myself!! For me that day was about 5 month ago,I let myself drift with the wind till I didn't know who am I...

O Sweet Lord Jesus Help Me Take One Day At A Time.

  O sweet Lord Jesus help me I pray, In faith to traverse life’s pathway, As this steep trail I now seek to climb Calmly may I take it one day at a time. Help me not fret o’er frustrations I pray But seek Your sweet presence along the way, ...

Day Forty-Three

Wow, what a day. So what I said earlier still stands. Issues with John (that he doesn't even know I'm feeling), and not being paid. Last day of babysitting so I had to say goodbye to my kids...they will be missed!   By the way...I've totally...

The Old Me

A letter About My Hero   I want to start off by saying that this letter is dedicated to my life hero, this letter is dedicated to the old me because she is the reason for the person I have blossomed to be. I am who I am today because the old me...

"Time Well Spent"

    Every morning I wake up and check my social media accounts as if it's some kind of newspaper. Except that the news I read isn't really full of any quality information. My first thoughts in the morning are flooded with others complaints, cries for...

"Journey to a New Me"

   I've found that it helps me to write out my thoughts and put all of my feelings into words. This blog is something that I know is helping me to be more in touch with who and what I want to be. I'm tired of running through life lost. I'm tired of...

Making Room for the Future

I haven't met my future self as yet.  However, I want to greet her with the widest smile and with enough space for her to fit right in.     I've been doing a lot of filtering lately.  I am a hoarder so I hold on to lame, expired and battered...

A couple of words changed my life.

A while ago I was so down like I've never been before, it was one of those times when you terribly need guidance, you need someone to remind you who you are as a human and what you are capable of, I came here and I wrote what I felt I let everything...

Body Image

Do you ever just sit and sulk about yourself? I was talking to an old friend and her previous relationship was not a good one for me. I know it wasn't/isn't my relationship but her boyfriend or whatever they were/are would always make comments to me....

"My Week in Review"

    I've been away from blogging for about a week now, but there are some things from my week that I would like to share. If you've been reading my other posts, then it's pretty obvious that I'm a little lost and confused about my purpose. Sometimes...

9 weeks after surgery: Good news and bad news

So it's officially the 9 week mark. Because I never had a formal cast, it's not like I can look forward to having the cast taken off. BUT, after two weeks of physical therspy from hell, and a whole new set of xrays, I do have one thing to look forward...

Those Who Smile Too Much are Probably Fools

  One of my fondest curb stone theories has recently been confirmed by genuine scientific research. It has to do with why some people are chronically grouchy and depressed while others are always bubbling with enthusiasm and looking at the bright...

Moving Out : First Apartment

So I've been approved for my first apartment ever. I'm nervous and scared and have mixed feelings. Obviously I'm way more excited than conflicted, but there's still some part of me that's going to miss being with my parents all the time (not ALL the...

Another Night...

It's one of those nights again. I sit here and question every little thing. Why am I here? What can I do to become happy again? Am I just overexaggerating?  I'm at war with myself. Nonstop fighting and thinking. What can I do? I try and distract...

stupid anxiety

so I might as well start an actual post to get my blog going(: So yeah..I've never noticed that I had actual anxiety until this very year..I've always stopped myself from doing things I really want to do I never knew..maybe to stop the panic attacks I...

Day Four

I wish I can say the challenge works right away...but that's not entirely the case.  I know I need to get myself in a more positive mindset but honestly, today was pretty hard.  I found myself thinking about not only John a lot, but also our other two...

Day Three

Well, night one I would have to say that the 100 Happy Day Challenge was nice and even yesterday I was okay but today I was more back on my Debbie Downer phase and no one wants to be that person.   I have been thinking about John a lot today and...

Day Two

The 100 Happy Days Challenge continues! Overall today was pretty good as a whole so it's nice to look back on the day.  It did begin a little rough with a visit to Walk-In Care because I have a janky eye and then driving to Tortuga and back to get...

100 Happy Days

Hello there fellow bloggers/readers!   My senior year of college I started to feel down again like I had when I was in my sophomore year of college (I was diagnosed with a mild case of depression).  With that feeling approaching, I had recently...

Things Are Starting To Look Up

I have a job interview on Thursday. I know I may not get the job, but I am still thinking positive. I am just happy that I got a call back from somewhere. I feel like things are starting to look up and I am grateful for that. Last night I mixed...

a sense of accomplisment

Today at work I seem to have gotten through a lot, and the day has flown by. Today I feel as though I have actually accomplished something, I have gone through the day without any critisism. I actually seem to be ending the day feeling positive, and...